104 Relinquishing

We want what we want when we want it, and we want others to be happy when we get it. We may pray earnestly God gives us what we want and feel disappointed when we do not receive it in our time frame. We might get insistent and demanding with God. In these times we need to relinquish control to God.

He withdrew about a stone’s throw beyond them, knelt down and prayed, “Father, if You are willing, take this cup from Me; yet, not my will, but Yours be done.” Luke 22:41

Relinquishing prayer does not mean we let go of all our desires. Rather, we pray for what we want in an attitude of humility, not demanding God to grant our request, but asking for our heart’s desire and leaving the answer to God.

Today I read about Dorrie, a Filipino young woman who exemplified relinquishing prayer. She took a ride on the ship Christopher. A furious storm sank the ship which had no life-boats and far too few life-vests. Dorrie swam poorly and had no life-vest. She clung to a piece of floating wood from the ship. After sinking and returning to the surface three times, she saw a large fire extinguisher floating at her. She held it in one hand and the wood in the other. The storm and waves had separated her from others. She sung to the Lord as night approached and prayed. She saw two bras and had a sudden insight to use them to tie together the wood and extinguisher. She then leaned upon them. By early morning she was exhausted and dehydrated. When a sudden rain fell, she said, “Thank you, Jesus!” and drank it. After another three hours she was so weak that she prayed, “Lord, I’m ready to die in the sea to be with You, but I’m also ready to live to serve You. You choose, Lord; Your will be done.” Two carrots floated to her. She received a bit of strength from eating them. Half an hour later, seventeen hours after the ship sank, she was rescued.*

Relinquishing prayer involves opening our hands rather than grasping for what we want. We hold loosely the things we want and allow God to work in our hearts as well as our circumstances. We present our requests to God not knowing how He will answer. While waiting, we thank Him for His goodness to us and find “the peace that surpasses understanding.” (Philippians 4:7)

Receiving His peace,

Noah Woodrich

WITH ME: Wisdom Intercession Teaching Hospitality Mercy Encouragement.

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*Robert Doorn, The Filipinos Are Coming! pp. 39-41


102 Humility Not Shame

I last blogged in June of 2014. I have been working through a lot of things, especially moving out of our apartment last year. I finally decided to take a year off in keeping with Exodus 23:10-11, “For six years you are to sow your fields and harvest the crops, but during the seventh year let the land lie unplowed and unused.” Some people call this the Shemitah year. That occurred from September 2014 to September 2015. Lately, I have been taking care of Marguex, and we are working through buying a house, so still very busy. I want to start blogging again and am taking the time to do this. Here is the first of what hopefully will be a long series of more blogs. Thanks for being patient.

When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom Proverbs 11:2

Last time I wrote about magic-bullet prayer. We cannot make God do our bidding. We simply lay our requests before Him and trust Him with the answers. We need to persist in prayer in humility, not demanding our way with God. Humility involves surrendering our will to God’s will.

Yet, we need to take care of ourselves. We need to provide for our needs and desires. We need to assert ourselves, right? Modern psychology certainly would back all these statements. However, I find the Bible to take a very different approach. According to the Bible, we need to humble ourselves before God, and He will provide for us.

To humble ourselves, we need to cast our cares upon God in trusting obedience. We humbly look to Him to provide for all of our needs and even to decide what it is we really need. We accept His will for our lives and lay aside our selfishness and selfish ambition.

To humble ourselves may seem like shame. We need to learn the difference. In humility we acknowledge our limitations before the Almighty God. In shame we say that we are less than others. Shame leads to pride, not humility. We can humble ourselves without rejecting ourselves. Rejecting ourselves exhibits pride because we claim to have some authority to decide whether or not we are acceptable. God has already accepted us in His own dear Son Whom He loves!

For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, and he who humbles himself will be exalted. Luke 1:14

God wants us to humble ourselves so that He can exalt us. Humility is not about making ourselves nothing, but about receiving the gift of what God thinks about us. Shame and humility are not the same thing. We need ongoing revelation on this to discern the difference.

Looking for His ongoing revelation,

Noah Woodrich

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Bringing grace and truth to the downcast; comforting others with the comfort, which we received.

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76 Pain

The eighth secret to finding humility is Pain!

God is refining my thoughts about finding humility.  We cannot make ourselves humble, but we can humble ourselves under God’s mighty hand.  We cannot achieve a state of humility on our own, but we can place ourselves, with an attitude of humility, under His care and control.  We confess our sins.  We worship God and praise others instead of boasting.  We claim responsibility for our own mistakes.  We listen to God and obey what we learn from Him.  Of course, our obedience will not be perfect.  To be perfect is not our focus, listening moment by moment to what Jesus teaches us and learning to obey Him is.  Then we become disciplined in this practice just as we do when we practice tennis, typing, a new language or an instrument.

Pain, weakness and overlooking offenses are tools that God uses to work the discipline of humility in us.  We need to change our minds about them.  Our tendency is to avoid dealing with pain, weakness and offenses.  However, when we are in pain we can practice humility and crying out to God.

Endure hardship as discipline; God is treating you as sons.  For what son is not disciplined by his father?…Moreover, we have all had human fathers who disciplined us and we respected them for it.  How much more should we submit to the Father of our spirits and live!…No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful.  Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.  Hebrews 12:7, 9, 11

Pain can drive us crazy.  We hate pain.  We try to avoid it, but it keeps coming back.  We do many things to get free from pain; such as taking drugs or alcohol.  In perfectionism we attempt to overcome pain or else try to ignore it.  Yet, if we are honest, we have to admit we feel pain.  Really, though, pain helps us realize we need to make changes, that we need God to make these changes.  If we do not go to God with our pain, we will not be able to find freedom from it.  We may find temporary freedom, but not lasting freedom for which our hearts yearn.

Pain reminds us of how weak we are.  In our pride we resist humbling ourselves even under the onslaught of pain.  We need to let go of pride and cry out to God in the midst of pain.  “The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them; He delivers them from all their troubles.” (Psalm 34:17)  In crying out to God, we open our hearts to Him.  We need to seek His face and submit to His will for us, trusting Him with our circumstances.  He promises His comfort.

Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, Who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God.  For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows.  II Corinthians 1:3-5

Passing on the comfort with which I’ve been comforted,

Noah Woodrich

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58 Mercy

Good news, bad news and the rest of the story, but background first.  I have been unemployed since November.  Unemployment provides less than half of what we really need to sustain our lifestyle.  My parents have been helping us pay rent.  Good news is that Marguex now has a job!  Bad news is that she absolutely needs a car with her new job, and our car is on its last three legs.  We could fix it, but do not think it is worth the money, potentially a couple thousand dollars, only to have it completely die in a few months.  It has over 200,000 miles on it.  Rest of the story: Friends of ours, wonderful, kind, generous bestest of friends, have offered to give us one of their cars!  Another couple, wonderful, kind, generous, bestest of friends (we are graced with good friends), have loaned us their car in the meantime!  God is good!

When we are broken we may doubt our standing with God.  We even wonder if we will be accepted into heaven.  These wonderings can leave us with tremendous feelings of fear and dread as we recall times when we have failed God.  We may even hate ourselves for the bad things we have done in life.  Be reassured, our relationship with God does not depend on our behavior.  Our relationship is built on His mercy.  Yes, He calls us to obey Him, and yes, He will forgive us no matter how many times we have sinned when we ask Him to forgive us.  “If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.” (I John 1:9)

He says to Moses, “I will have mercy on whom I have mercy, and I will have compassion on whom I have compassion.”  It does not, therefore, depend on man’s desire or effort, but on God’s mercy.  Romans 9:15-16

Regardless of what we have done or not done in life, we need to rely and trust in God’s mercy.  The Gospel, good news, is all about God’s mercy.  We do not redeem ourselves.  We are redeemed by the blood of our Savior and Lord, Jesus Christ.  In our perfectionism, we tend to fall into the trap of believing that our acceptability depends on our performance.  We need to keep reminding ourselves God is full of mercy and compassion.

We would like to obey God which is good.  However, in our efforts to obey, we often lose sight of God’s mercy and grace.  Perhaps this saying will help: “Mercy! Mercy! Mercy! Grace! Grace! Grace!”

But when the kindness and love of God our Savior appeared, He saved us, not because of righteous things we had done, but because of His mercy.  He saved us through the washing of rebirth and renewal by the Holy Spirit…. Titus 3:4-5  Mercy triumphs over judgment!  James 2:13  Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ!  In His great mercy He has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead…. I Peter 1:3

Receiving His kind and tender mercy,

Noah Woodrich

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57 Brokenness

The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me because the Lord has anointed me to preach good news to the poor.  He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from the darkness for the prisoners, to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor and the day of vengeance of our God, to comfort all who mourn and provide for those who grieve in Zion—to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair.  They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the Lord for the display of His splendor.  Isaiah 61:1-3

Blessed are the broken, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.  Matthew 5:3

He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness.”  Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.  2 Corinthians 12:9.

We are all broken.  All of us have “sinned and fallen short of the glory of God.” (Romans 3:23)  Some of us acknowledge our brokenness and some do not.  If we don’t acknowledge our brokenness, we act out of pride.  We hide behind a façade of capability.  This is not to deny that we are capable in some areas, yet we all have areas of brokenness and weakness, areas in which we have unresolved problems.  When we acknowledge our brokenness to God, He will come to our aid.  We are weak.  God wants us to acknowledge our weakness.  In this state He gets the glory for any growth in our lives. The Lord puts us on display for His splendor.

For those of us dealing with recovery from perfectionism this can feel painfully embarrassing.  We want to feel like we have it all together.  We want to be in control.  We want others to think highly of us.  We want to feel good about ourselves based on how we perform at any given task, but feeling good about ourselves based on our performance is fleeting at best.  We may do well today but what about tomorrow when we may fail miserably?  An identity based on a self-esteem manufactured from performance is a recipe for discouragement and heartache.  We need to base our identity on God’s view of us, rather than our performance.

We need to push through our embarrassment regarding our weaknesses and brokenness.  Letting go of our mask of competency in those areas where we are not competent will bring our hearts into the Light where they can grow.  God deserves the glory for all the good things in our lives.  Humbling ourselves before Him leads to healing.  When we acknowledge our brokenness, God gets the glory!

Broken and finding God’s glory,

Noah Woodrich

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