101 Magic Bullet Prayer

Many times in our lives we hope for “magic bullet” prayers which guarantee God would grant our requests. For example, we cry, “Papa, please help my car to start.” You know I need to get to work on time. You command me to work, and where You guide, You provide, so make it start right now! I claim victory in Jesus’ name!” If we could just say the right words and have deep enough faith He would give us what we want.

Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”   II Corinthians 12:8-9

If God always said, “Yes,” to our magic bullet prayers, we would feel compelled to pray over every difficulty we hear until we found the “magic bullet” that would finally convince God to solve every problem to our satisfaction. The responsibility for the problems of family, friends and even the world would weigh on us. Intense pressure would obligate us to find those just right prayers to achieve our view of “success”.

This sounds like perfectionism.

If we could persuade God to always say “Yes,” then we could manipulate God. To think we have this power over Him involves great pride. Continuing for some time in this thought, we would find ourselves trying to manage the whole world. That job is already taken.

“With great power comes great responsibility.” If we knew that with just the right prayer we could get a “Yes,” we would continually feel guilty for not spending all our time looking for “magic bullet” prayers. We would feel a severe demand to find that “magic bullet.”

God reigns over the universe, and He is not giving His job away. He will decide how to answer our prayers. Thank God for that! We are not in charge, He is. It would be “Heaven” in our view if we could get all our desires fulfilled. Heaven will be here—in God’s timing.

I thank God for the times He has denied my requests. That reminds me that I am not responsible for everything. God is in charge and that for our good.

Many of us have prayed hard and long for our hearts’ desires. We use every prayer we can think to apply to these situations. We claim God’s goodness and His power, and still, “No,” or, “Not yet,” is the answer. We cannot rush God. Any, “No,” except those with a time element, could be a, “Not yet.”

In His word, God says, “I will…” He will cause it to happen. We do not have the power to make God change the world. When we let God be the One in charge, we relieve ourselves of a burden that is not ours to bear. We give responsibility back to God by praying relinquishment. It may sound like this, “Father, I give this issue over to You, trusting in You to work Your will in this situation.”

Learning to accept my limitations in humility,

Noah Woodrich

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73 Boasting

The fifth secret to finding humility is:  Learning not to boast.

Now, brothers and sisters, I’ve applied these things to myself and Apollos for your benefit, so that you may learn from us the meaning of the saying, “Do not go beyond what is written.”  Then you will not be a puffed up follower of one of us over against the other.  For who makes you different from anyone else?  What do you have that you did not receive?  And if you did receive it, why do you boast as though you did not?  I Corinthians 4:7

Our hearts may feel empty and alone.  We try to fill ourselves with positive thoughts, but they don’t make us feel better.  We proceed to compare ourselves with others.  We may feel a little better, but comparison leads to pride and an inflated view of self.  Pride, at least, feels better than its flip side, shame.  We have learned to boast to keep ourselves in this “up” state.  This pride truly locks us into shame.  Humility helps us find genuine freedom.

We can so easily fall back into boasting.  Shouldn’t we get credit for the good we do?  We try to combat our shame by feeling good about our accomplishments but to no avail.  Instead, we need to take the path of humility so as to find relief from our shame.  If we humble ourselves before God, He will lift us up. (I Pet. 5:6)  We need to trust Him. (Prov. 29: 25)

We don’t even realize when we boast because it has become a habit.  It comes naturally.  We don’t think about our boastful thoughts as we constantly compare ourselves to others.  We rate ourselves based on these comparisons.

Alternatively, we can commend others.  We need to avoid our tendency to laud ourselves.  We need to look for the contributions others bring, tell them how they have enhanced the world around them and thank them for these contributions.  Instead of craving accolades let’s give them.  “Love your neighbor as yourself…and in humility value others above yourselves.” (Matthew 22:39…Philippians 2:3 emphasis mine)  Keep in mind, if no one repays the favor, great!  We then have an opportunity to humble ourselves.

Above all, we need to give the highest tribute to God.  He is the Author of everything good. (James 1:17)  Giving God worship, praise and thanksgiving will go against our tendency to credit ourselves.  Any qualities we possess (intelligence, attractiveness, athletic prowess, musicality and other talents), we received as gifts from God.

Acknowledging my tendency to boast,

Noah Woodrich

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49 Self Acceptance Curveball

Dear friends,  if our hearts do not condemn us, we have confidence before God.”
I John 3:21

Seeking self-acceptance is a useless battle. Emotional healing does not come through accepting ourselves. Healing comes from accepting Jesus as Lord and Savior. We cannot heal ourselves. To try to do so would be wasted effort. Seeking self acceptance becomes a self-defeating trap. When we spend time and energy trying to accept ourselves, we frustrate, rather than heal, ourselves. Instead of striving to accept self, we need to accept Jesus as Lord and Savior—His will and His way. We may find partial success with self-acceptance initially, which encourages us to keep going, but we can never find it fully. Seeking to accept things about ourselves that we don’t like also leads to circular thinking.

For example, we do not like feeling emotional pain. We seek to stop feeling pain, don’t want to feel pain, and yet we do feel pain. We don’t like that we feel pain and do not like that we are so sensitive. People may not intend to hurt us, but we sometimes feel hurt by what they say. We may not like this about ourselves; we want to become less sensitive. However, in embracing the desire to not be so sensitive, we find ourselves rejecting our sensitivity and so not accepting self.

Alternatively, we choose to accept our pain and sensitivity and then we don’t accept the part of us that does not like pain and sensitivity, the part of us that wants change. We could try to be all-accepting of our own self, to try to embrace all of who we are, we could seek to accept that we feel pain, as well as not wanting to feel pain, but this solution does not feel possible. Intrinsic in feeling pain is the desire to not feel it. On an intellectual level we accept that we feel pain but in the feeling of pain we find the desire to not feel it! These two paragraphs demonstrate circular thinking.

The goal of self-acceptance is self-contradictory. The dictionary defines ‘self’ as “One’s total being” and ‘accept’ as “To receive willingly.” We feel pain, but not willingly. We definitely don’t want to get stuck in pain. On an intellectual level, we willingly understand that pain is a part of life. But on an emotional level, we feel the drive to rid self of pain. Internal conflict leads to feelings of pain, shame and other negative emotions which we seek to eliminate to obtain a state of inner peace. Negative emotions reveal problems.

Actually, I feel more self-accepting when I let go of striving to accept myself!

Peace I leave with you; My peace I give you. John 14: 27 (emphasis mine)

Learning to rest in His peace,

Noah Woodrich

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45 Frozen Emotions

When we rest we find awareness of our deep thoughts and feelings.  When we have pain and unresolved issues, we often stay busy to numb ourselves from them.  Busyness wars against our spiritual life.  As we allow thoughts and feelings about our pain and issues to surface, we need to open ourselves to hear from God.  We need to invite Him into the deep places of our hearts.  In the place of being still, we cry out to God and receive His Spirit.

Surely, You desire truth in the inner parts; You teach me wisdom in the inmost place.  …Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.  Do not cast me from Your presence or take Your Holy Spirit from me.  Restore to me the joy of Your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.  Psalm 51:6, 10-12

When we shut down our emotions, we block the Holy Spirit.  Jesus, through His Holy Spirit, is a Gentleman.  He knocks at the door of our hearts, but doesn’t enter unless invited. (Rev. 3:20)  When we invite the Holy Spirit to go into the recesses of our hearts, we need to be open to experiencing His comfort and attending emotions.  We may want to numb or ignore our emotions.  These emotions can become “frozen” when we choose to barricade them from our awareness.  As children we learned this strategy to cope with the unruliness of our emotions.  The barricades led us to numb or disregard our emotions.  However, God has given us our emotions to work through problems.  Ignoring emotions does not make them go away.  Our emotions are a part of us and not separable from the rest of our being.

When we become aware or present to our emotions we give God access to them.  We cannot heal ourselves, but we can block healing.  We want to experience joy, but we need to work through pain to get to joy.  At times we will experience pain followed by times of joy and release.  God does not hold us in pain.  We might hold ourselves in pain.  He wants to heal us.  We find support from God as we cry out to Him.  Moreover, we can find people who support us.  They can help us discover new ways to break through our barricades, experience our emotions and then manage them.  We need support from safe people.  We cannot heal alone.  We trust and depend on God alone and receive people only as servants from His hand.

As an example, after years of opening myself to God’s healing, I still had frozen emotions.  I acted in anger without feeling it.  With encouragement, I attended an anger management class led by a safe teacher (a safe person and servant from God’s hand).  In an exercise from the class (STOP exercise, a helpful tool), I found that I did have anger!  Over the years, I continued the exercise and discovered other deep emotions and their roots.  As I heard God speaking His love over me, He worked a deeper healing within my heart.

Warmed by His embrace,

Noah Woodrich

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42 Lawlessness

As we let go of rules and learn to trust God instead of our own performance, we can go from legalism to lawlessness. Even in legalism we can be rigid about some things and very lax about other things. We need to find moderation, letting go of overly high expectations while listening to God and obeying Him.

Everyone who sins breaks the law; in fact, sin is lawlessness. But you know that He appeared so that He might take away our sins. And in Him is no sin. No one who lives in Him keeps on sinning. No one who continues to sin has either seen Him or known Him. 1 John 3:4-6

“Continues to sin” in the Greek implies a constant and habitual practice of sin, seeking to sin rather than avoiding it. Yet, even in our avoiding sin we can fall into another trap. This trap is struggling against sin and seeking to become free in our own power. We need God’s power (next blog) to be free.

We practice lawlessness when we misuse freedom and put ourselves above the law, thus giving our legalistic enemy the right to hold our sin against us. This leaves us open and vulnerable. He is a beguiler and wants “to steal, kill and destroy.” (John 10:10) He will take advantage of our every vulnerability. We delude and put ourselves at the mercy of the father of lies when we say, “Oh, I can get away with it this one time.” When we sin, we give inroads to the enemy’s condemnation. For example, an apartment complex may have a walking path which says for residents only. Non-residents may rationalize walking it, but they make themselves trespassers. Rationalizing opens us to the enemy’s arrows. We need to be aware of his wiles.

Even small temptations can lead to lawlessness. In all the above keep in mind, conviction comes from the Holy Spirit and condemnation comes from the devil. “When you were slaves to sin, you were free from the control of righteousness. What benefit did you reap at that time from the things you are now ashamed of? Those things result in death! But now that you have been set free from sin and have become slaves to God, the benefit you reap leads to holiness, and the result is eternal life.” (Romans 6:20-22) God wants to forgive us and to give us His peace! “If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.” (1 John 1:9) “Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Come near to God and He will come near to you.” (James 4:7-8, emphasis mine) God made a way for us. We need to live in Christ and walk in the works He prepared for us in advance to do.

Learning to submit to the Master,

Noah & Marguex Woodrich

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40 How Did We Get Here?

Whoever welcomes a little child like this in My Name welcomes Me.  But if anyone causes one of these little ones who believe in Me to sin, it would be better for him to have a large millstone hung around his neck and to be drowned in the depths of the sea.  Matthew 18:5-6

Past e-letters have talked about some of the signs and effects of perfectionism and ideas for healing from perfectionism.  How did we get here in the first place?  Why are we so perfectionistic?

The simple answer…shame.  Shame drives us to perfectionism because we strive to rid ourselves of the selfsame shame through performance.  Shame feels like guilt, and so we conclude that we can deal with shame as we deal with guilt.  This does not work because shame has a completely different source than guilt.  We deal with our shame by trying to atone for the bad feelings in our souls.  We think that if we act in new and “right” (in other words, self-righteous) ways, our shame will go away.  When the shame does not go away, we conclude that we did not find the right way.  We then seek even more diligently to find ways that will work in ridding us from this internal feeling of badness.

How did we come by these feelings of badness or shame?  We perceive shame subjectively.  Much of it came from our childhood.  We experienced shame when others sinned against us; examples are physical abuse, sexual abuse, neglect, abandonment, excessive punishment, harsh words, lack of love and affection, which all scar a child’s soul.  We also experienced shame through our own sin.  Even though we confess and receive forgiveness the Accuser still condemns us for past sins.

I give you the following example from my adult life.  When I am with people and they laugh, I sometimes personalize it and think they are laughing at me.  When I do something goofy and someone laughs, I feel shame.  My wife and I have talked about this extensively.  I appreciate her perspective.  When she is with me and laughs at my goofiness, she wants to laugh with me.  She is celebrating me.  She has a loving attitude towards me.  Laughter for me can be a trigger by reminding me of others laughing at me when I was a child.

What triggers our shame?  Knowing our triggers helps us deal with our shame.  Understanding triggers gives us insight into the source of our shame.  The presence of these triggers indicates unresolved issues.

We want to run away from our shame, hide it or push it away.  None of these tactics work.  We need to deal with the roots of our shame.  Ultimately, we need to forgive those who hurt us.  Keep in mind that forgiveness is a process and can take much time, especially for those of us who experience horrendous abuse and neglect in childhood.

We have much to learn about the roots of our shame.  The above is only an introduction.

Noah Woodrich

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37 The Monster

Perfectionism is a monster. Extreme words, yet well deserved. Perfectionism saps our life. Perfectionism kills hopes and dreams. It tears down faith, replacing it with doubt and fear. Perfectionism promises to help us yet leads us to hesitate at every decision. It demands us to agonize and worrying over small things only to find later they weren’t such a big deal.

Perfectionism tells us we can earn the love and approval we so desperately crave. If we follow the right rules we will be successful. It entices us with an illusion of control. It deceives us into believing; if we just come up with the right plan and work hard enough our future will be bright and glorious. It then it robs us of time and energy without delivering on its promises. Perfectionism promises order and an illusion of peace and delivers frustration and regret. Perfectionism says if we live right, do what we are supposed to do when we are supposed to do it, then we be rewarded. When we aren’t we conclude that we did something wrong.

The truth is we cannot ever live “right enough”. The standard will keep on rising. In our striving and competition we will keep finding others who are better, stronger and faster than we are. We find ourselves outperformed. We feel defeated.

I lived with perfectionism most of my life. In childhood, I did not have a grasp that Jesus was my Savior while I was trying to make Him Lord. I sought to serve Him with no apparent success. I craved joy and peace of which I experienced very little. I figured that was because I didn’t love God and others as I should. I would try really hard but ended up feeling angry at others and then at myself for being angry at others. I couldn’t measure up. I felt like a failure.

Fast forward three decades. When I would feel sick, my wife encouraged me to take a day off so as to recuperate. “But I’m not that sick,” I would say while wondering if I was sick enough to take the day off. She would plead with me saying, “You need to take the day off so you can get better.” I would go to work anyway, coughing and sneezing, with a dripping nose and say, “I don’t feel so bad.” I took three handkerchiefs with me and found I needed another. Upon waking up one morning I was so sick that I worried I wouldn’t make it through a workday. I didn’t even want to get up to go to the restroom, much less go to work! I made the call. My boss said, “Hope you get to feeling better.” I hung up the phone. Relief swept through my body! I actually took the day off! I thought, “How bad do I need to feel to call in sick?”

Life does not need to be like this. We can find freedom from perfectionism, stop agreeing with its lies and let go of it. We need not to be so harsh on ourselves and learn that new ways of thinking and acting take time. Jesus offers authentic hope. Ask God for help and He’ll show the way

Come to Me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light. Matthew 11:28-30

Being rescued from the maws of the Monster,

Noah Woodrich

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36 Barriers

Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life…An offended brother is more unyielding than a fortified city, and disputes are like the barred gates of a citadel. Proverbs 4:23, Proverbs 18:19

As stated previously, boundaries provide structure and support to our lives. Nonetheless, boundaries need to be flexible enough to allow ebb and flow in relation to others. Rigid boundaries do not allow good in and bad out; they put up barriers of self-protection around our souls.

In reality, we need to guard our hearts and keep unsafe people from muddying our wellsprings. Pleasing or placating others can break down our boundaries and may leave us vulnerable but the alternative of blocking all people totally out of our lives in our attempt to keep ourselves from being hurt is not the answer. We do not want the wellsprings of our hearts muddied by those who would use or harm us, but to put walls around our hearts that close out any interaction with others can lead to a hardened heart. Consequently, we need to be flexible and open. This is especially true in relation to the Lord. We need to receive the good things He has for us and pour out the bad things to Him in prayers and petitions.

Also, God will bring to us safe people. Together, we will speak His Word in love to one another, listen to one another and will hear Him and be knit together. The Lord will breathe life into our aching hearts. He will meet us with His power and love. We need to receive His life, power and love. Our barriers to Him and His body block His goodness from coming to us. We need to let go of our barriers.

Letting go of our barriers may seem really scary. We have trusted our barriers to protect us. “The name of the Lord is a strong tower; the righteous run to it and are safe.” (Proverbs 18:10) We need to trust the Lord to protect us. The Lord wants us to have boundaries. We are not to trust just anybody and everybody. Remember, the wise are cautious in friendship (Proverbs 12:26).

As we let go of our barriers, we need to learn and replace them with good boundaries. We will encounter both internal and external resistance as we let go of our barriers and replace them with good boundaries. The Lord freely gives us His love and power. In loving Him we also need to learn how to trust Him. We cannot love Him in our own power and we often resist Him but He is able to help us in our weakness and give us the power to learn, receive His love and love Him back.

Bringing down the barriers and yielding to Him,

Noah Woodrich

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34 Codependency

There is a way that seems right to a man, but in the end it leads to death.  Proverbs 14:12

Relationships open the door to our healing.  However, relationships can be mired in codependency.  Codependency and perfectionism share many characteristics.  Both are addictions to control.  Both are reactions to shame and self-hatred.  Both promise to provide us with good feelings and a sense of self-worth.  Both involve wearing a mask, a false self which covers over our true self.  Both are diseases of the heart and mind.

Codependency and perfectionism have some differences.  People who practice codependent behavior are preoccupied with relationships while those who struggle with perfectionism focus on doing the “right” behaviors.  In perfectionism one drives at winning love and approval through adhering to the right rules, while codependency seeks to win love through others’ approval.

Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.  Proverbs 4:23

Obviously, our relational difficulties exist before we become aware of them.  As we learn to trust and share more of ourselves with others, we find areas of codependency.  They will become more pronounced as we spend more time with and energy in relating to others.

How do you know if you have codependency?  Do you have feelings of worthlessness and inadequacy or, on the other hand, have feelings of superiority and arrogance?  Do you leave interactions with others finding most of your own needs and wants unmet?  Do you overreact to circumstances in your life?  Do you sometimes wonder who you are in connection to others in your life?  Answering yes to any of these questions indicates at least some level of codependency.

Recovering from codependency, like recovering from perfectionism, takes time.  No panacea can instantly heal us.  God could heal us in a moment, but He is a Gentleman.  He does not violate our will; He gives us the freedom to make choices, even bad ones.  Part of the true recovery involves talking with God and hearing His Word.  What is He saying to us?

At times our codependency can flare up and result in extreme care-taking behavior.  We ignore our own needs/wants in order to take care of someone else.  The funny thing is we want others to be more in need than us because of self-idealism, competition and pride.  If others are “less-than”, we are “better-than”.  When we own our needs and ask for help, we heal from our codependent behaviors.  We need to humble ourselves and ask for help which, in turn, helps us to let go of pride and self-idealism.

Discovering who I am in Christ,

Noah Woodrich

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30 Control

Most of us like control.  We would like to have power over our circumstances.  We want what we want when we want it.  We want things done the way we think they should be done.

Though, if we think about it, we have to admit that we do not have control.  Thinking we can be in control involves self-deception and denial.  “Control is an illusion.”  Have you ever made plans that did not come to fruition?

The illusion of control flows from our self-idealism.  Self-idealism and control are forms of self idolatry.  We start to live as if we are God and have total control over our own lives.  Do we really want total control over our lives?  Over the lives of those whom we love?  What happens in a relationship when two people both want total control?  What does real love look like?

When we seek to manipulate others around us, we are trying to control our world.  Coercion and Gossip are two ways we can try to manipulate our surroundings.  Prayer can also be an attempt to manipulate.  We want to control others, yes.  When we begin thinking we can control God, we take ourselves out from under His protection, which is scary.  We need, in humility, to remember that God is sovereign.  He can answer our prayers with, “Yes”.  He may choose to ask us to wait in response to our requests.  He might even give us a decided “No”.  Ponder John 14-17 as a way to inform you in your prayers and how to love.

“God blesses those who are gentle and lowly, for the whole earth will belong to them.”  Matthew 5:5, NLT

Submit yourselves, then, to God.  James 4:7

When life circumstances lead us to feel out of control our fears provoke us to grasp for control.  “Cast all your anxiety on Him, for He cares for you.” (1 Peter 5:7)  When we feel out of control, we need to remember that God is still in control and in control for our good.  He has plans for us that will never fail.

The Lord will work out His plans for my life–for your faithful love, O Lord, endures forever.  Psalm 138:8, NLT

Receiving His faithful love,

Noah Woodrich (and Marguex)

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29 Fear

“There is no fear in love.  But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment.  The one who fears is not made perfect in love. (I John 4:18)  I used to be afraid of this verse!  I knew I was afraid, and I wasn’t supposed to be afraid!  I failed miserably as a Christian because I had so much fear in my life.  I was not “perfect in love.”  Notice the bind into which I put myself.

We hold ourselves to impossibly high standards in our self-idealism.  This leads to fear.  Curiously, we developed our standards and rules in response to a fear we felt towards others who had the power to hurt us.  Therefore, we seek to control the world around us and lessen the risk in our lives.  Ironically, we crave adventure but do not want to take the risks to get it.

As I said last time, after a crash, we vacillate between anger towards God and doubting Him.  If we don’t own our anger towards God, it can turn to fear, and we wonder if He exists or cares.

We know the Lord’s admonition “do not be afraid” (I John 4:18; John 14:1 & 27).  Philippians 4:6 says, “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.”  As we read this, however, we feel condemned rather than encouraged.  We don’t want to feel afraid.  How, then, can we be free of fear?

Cast all your anxiety on Him, for He cares for you.  I Peter 5:7 (emphasis added)

We have heard about laying our fears at the foot of the cross.  Sometimes we feel much more energy behind our fears than “laying them at the foot of the cross” entails.  Rather, imagine holding something like a baseball and whipping it at the cross.  This sounds shocking.  Jesus is Lord of Lords and King of Kings. (Revelation 17:14 &19:16)  He created all things, and He redeemed us. (Isaiah 54:5, 44:24, Colossians 1:21-23)  He is to be worshiped and adored forever and ever, amen! (Revelation 4:8-11)  Yet, we may need to whip our fear at Him on that cross!  It may sound crazy,but what is crazier is to hold on to our fears!  All of our ideas find their fruition, resolution and/or death, as the case may be, in Jesus.  (Romans 6:2-4, John 14:6)  So, whip your fear at Jesus.  “Cast all your anxiety on Him, for He cares for you.”  He knows all of our fears and He knows all about our fears.  He has borne them already on the cross (2 Corinthians 5:20).  He has already taken them, so give them to Him.  Really, give them to Him!

Imagine Jesus sitting in the seat of a “dunk tank”.  Throw the ball of your fear at the target so that Jesus goes under.  He already has (Isaiah 53:4-6).

Redeemed by the blood of the Lamb and thankful for it,

Noah Woodrich

WITH ME: Wisdom Intercession Teaching Hospitality Mercy Encouragement

     Bringing grace and truth to the downcast; reflecting the light we have received                                    so that others can better see.  Prayers needed.

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PS  Hold loosely (blog #4) to what I say here (as well as other blogs) and don’t make it into a rule.


28 Anger Towards God

Nothing in all creation is hidden from God’s sight.  Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of Him to Whom we must give account.  Hebrews 4:13

After a crash, we can vacillate between doubting God and feeling angry with Him.  “If He exists and is truly all-loving, all-knowing and all-powerful, why did He allow this crash into my life?”  How do you phase this question?  Regardless of the specific words, this question disturbs us.

To remain firm in our faith, we need to deal with our anger towards God.  No answer satisfies the question “Why did You let this happen to me?!”  No answer can satisfy the question.  We need God Himself to meet our hearts.  We need His presence and comfort.  Nothing can satisfy, but God alone.  Even though we will not fully know God until Heaven, we can still get glimpses of Him while on Earth.

Do you want more of God?  Cry out to Him!  He will show up for you.  We open our hearts to Him When we cry out to Him.  He already know what we are thinking and feeling.  We do not protect God by withholding ourselves from Him.  Neither do we protect ourselves by keeping ourselves from Him.

Tell God exactly what you are feeling.  If you are angry with God, tell Him!  I know, this sounds sacrilegious.  This does not sound true, noble, right, honorable, excellent or praise-worthy to tell God we are angry at Him (cf. Philippians 4:8).  God is to be worshiped and glorified forever (cf. Rev 4:8-11).  Yes!  And we need to be open and honest with Him!  Telling God what is going on inside of us is not only important, it is right and true.  A friend once said, “He is big enough to take it.”

Think of telling God what you feel towards Him as a form of prayer.  Telling God what you feel towards Him shows that:  1) You believe that He exists.  2) You believe He is all-loving, all-knowing and all-powerful. 3) You trust Him enough to share your deep and dark thoughts with Him.

If you keep your anger towards God to yourself, you will only end up holding onto them.  Crying out to God will help you to release your feelings to Him!  Own them, then let go of your negative feelings.  Healing is a process.  Keep crying out to God as long as you have intense negative feelings.

Finding Him faithful and true,

Noah Woodrich

WITH ME: Wisdom Intercession Teaching Hospitality Mercy Encouragement

     Bringing grace and truth to the downcast; reflecting the light we have received                                    so that others can better see.  Prayers needed.

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27 Crash

We all come into this world helpless as infants. We grow yet we are still naïve. As children we trust those who care for us. We continue to grow and develop throughout our childhood yet we retain some of our infant helplessness. Then, as we grown into adolescents, we begin to resent parental intrusions into our lives, yet we continue to feel deeply dependent upon them. The development continues into adulthood where we learn independence, move away from home and make a life of our own.

Somewhere in this process we experience “crashes”—a “crash” is a profoundly negative event that marks us. What was your crash? Some may have experienced many crashes. A “crash” shakes us to our core and can make us wonder if God even exists. My primary crash was the death of my mother when I was eight and a half years old. I believed in God when I was a child, and I heard about His love, but I doubted that He really loved me.

Shall we accept good from God, and not trouble?” Job to his wife, from Job 2:10.

Job believed in God. According to Job 1:1, “This man was blameless and upright; he feared God and shunned evil.” Job made the above statement after he lost almost everything he had, including his health. After some time with his friends, Job’s thoughts about God seemed to have changed. “’I cry out to You, O God, but You do not answer; I stand up, but You merely look at me. You turn on me ruthlessly; with the might of Your hand You attack me. You snatch me up and drive me before the wind; You toss me about in the storm. I know You will bring me down to death, to the place appointed for all the living.’” Job 30:20-23. Job’s view of God was affected by his circumstances.

We tend to question God after a crash. “Why me?” we ask, “Why now? How could You have let this happen to me?” When push comes to shove, God is the big target for our blame.

What is the basis for our faith in God? Is it the circumstances of our life, or His Word? Yes, circumstances affect us. Stoicism, ignoring our emotions or closing ourselves off to them actually worsen our problems. Rather, we need to base our faith on the Word of God even in the midst of crashes and the resulting pain and suffering.

How can we still believe in God when He allows us to experience crashes? Some “crashes” are blatantly evil (such as the shootings at the opening of the “Batman” movie in Aurora, Colorado). The news shows us daily the evil in this world. We need the power of the Holy Spirit living in us to keep believing in God. “No one can say ‘Jesus is Lord’ except by the Holy Spirit” (I Corinthians 12:3). As Lord, He is in control and in control for our good.

Finding faith in Him,

Noah Woodrich

WITH ME: Wisdom Intercession Teaching Hospitality Mercy Encouragement

     Bringing grace and truth to the downcast; reflecting the light we have received                                    so that others can better see.  Prayers needed.

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25 Self-Idealism

To some who were confident of their own righteousness and looked down on everybody else, Jesus told this parable:  “Two men went up to the temple to pray, one a Pharisee and the other a tax collector.  The Pharisee stood up and prayed about himself: ‘God, I thank you that I am not like other men – robbers, evil-doers, adulterers – or even like this tax collector.  I fast twice a week and give a tenth of all I get.’  But the tax collector stood at a distance.  He would not even look up to heaven, but beat his breast and said, ‘God, have mercy on me, a sinner.’  I tell you that this man, rather than the other, went home justified before God.  For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, and he who humbles himself will be exalted.”  Luke 18:9-14

In our pride we think highly of ourselves.  We consider ourselves capable of great feats.  We can even develop a superman complex and be in awe of ourselves.  We relate to Peter Pan when he says, “Oh, the wonder of me!”  If not checked we revel in our self-idealism.  Self-idealism is idolatrous, narcissistic and grandiose.  Self-idealism feeds on perfectionism and, in turn, perfectionism feeds on self-idealism.

When we believe the lies perfectionism espouses, we open ourselves to idealizing self.  In order to maintain our perfectionism, we need to believe ourselves to be superhuman.  We deceive ourselves into believing we are way more capable than we really are.  Humility requires an accurate appraisal of oneself.

What are some reveries we have about ourselves?  Ones where we think we have the right idea for ourselves and for others.  “Why don’t they just do the right thing?” we ask, “Can’t they see that speck in their eye?!  Oh, yes, they might not be able to see it for the log in my eye that is in the way.”  Let’s remove the log so we might see clearly and help each other with the specks. (Matthew 7:5)

I wonder if we realize how much perfectionism affects us on a daily basis.  Perfectionism involves denial.  We need to let go of our denial.  Owning our self-idealism helps us let go of it.

I confess my self-idealism.  I have been aware of it for many years, yet I still hold on to it.  I need to follow my own advice.  God, have mercy on me, a sinner!

Choosing to own and let go,

Noah Woodrich

WITH ME: Wisdom Intercession Teaching Hospitality Mercy Encouragement

     Bringing grace and truth to the downcast; reflecting the light we have received                                    so that others can better see.  Prayers needed.

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PS  In case you cannot relate to the above, either you do not have self-idealism or perhaps you are in profound denial (?).  Okay, seriously now, open your heart and listen to God.  Is the Spirit pointing out any self-idealism?  If not, please pray for us who struggle with it.  Thank you!


24 Pride

Last post showed how the performance trap feeds our pride.  We tend to think more highly of ourselves than we ought.  In humility, we need to consider others better than ourselves (Philippians 2:3).  We have inflated egos.  We think we are capable of great feats.  We are capable of many things.  God’s works are wonderful.  We are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14).  We are created in His image (Genesis 1:27).  In addition, we are able to learn and adapt in our circumstances.  Furthermore, we experience mastery over many of the issues of life.  The fact that you can read this sentence and understand it shows your ability to learn and think.

However, our abilities have limitations.  We are finite creatures.  We do not like to admit our limitations.  We prefer to think of what we can do rather than what we cannot do.  We feel a need to prove ourselves, then, because we are fighting our shame.  We do not like feelings of shame.  Shame feels shaming.  It is painful.  We strive to get rid of these negative feelings.  We use pride to battle shame.

Pride, however, is the flip side of shame.  Shame says we are dreadful.  Pride says we are superior.  In reality, the coin has no power to define us.  We are sinners saved by grace.  We are now saints, but this is God’s work in us, not our own doing (Philippians 2:13).

God warns us against pride:

[The Lord] mocks proud mockers but gives grace to the humble.  Proverbs 3:34

God opposes the proud, but gives grace to the humble.   James 4:6, I Peter 5:5

Humility differs greatly from shame.  Shame says we are awful.  Humility says we are human like everyone else; that is, we sin and make mistakes.  Shame wallows in how poorly we have treated others.  Humility acknowledges the ways we have hurt others and repents of those things.  Shame rejects grace as too kind, too considerate.  Humility accepts grace as a gift.

Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand that He may lift you up in due time.  I Peter 5:6 (also James 4:10)

Letting go of pride and shame; learning to embrace humility,

Noah Woodrich

WITH ME: Wisdom Intercession Teaching Hospitality Mercy Encouragement

     Bringing grace and truth to the downcast; reflecting the light we have received                                    so that others can better see.  Prayers needed.

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23 Performance Trap

“Be careful not to do your ‘acts of righteousness’ before men, to be seen by them.  If you do, you will have no reward from your Father in Heaven.”  Matthew 6:1

Rules flow out of fear.  The rules may issue out of fears, such as:  fear of failure, fear of being punished or even out of fear of losing praise.  By our rules we try to avoid bad things.  By our good performance we try to create good things.  We think that if we do the right thing at the right time, good will result.  We seek to obey all the rules and do all the right things.  Sometimes this even works!

Positive results reinforce our performance and striving behavior.  If we crave praise and diligently seek it, we find ourselves in The Performance Trap.

Jesus calls us to obey Him rather than our man made rules.  Valuing what people say about us more than what God says about us makes an idol out of human praise.  You may think receiving praise is harmless, but consider how you allow it to control you.  What are some things you have done today solely because someone else thought you should do it rather than doing it because it was on your task list for the day?  Do you run after praise?

You may be thinking, “But, I’m supposed to try to please others.”  Why?  Who says?  What will happen if you don’t?  Are you obeying Jesus in your people-pleasing behavior?  “Fear of man will prove to be a snare, but whoever trusts in the Lord is kept safe.” (Proverbs 29:25)

Where is your emotional investment, earthly treasure or heavenly treasure?  I am speaking of praise as a type of treasure.  “’Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal.  But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal.  For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.’” (Matthew 6:19-21)

Let go of performing for others.  What is God saying to you about your motivations?  Choose to live for Him and His glory rather than for your own glory.

Learning to live for the Master,

Noah Woodrich

WITH ME: Wisdom Intercession Teaching Hospitality Mercy Encouragement

     Bringing grace and truth to the downcast; reflecting the light we have received                                    so that others can better see.  Prayers needed.

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22 Rules

When Jesus had finished speaking, a Pharisee invited Him to eat with him; so He went in and reclined at the table.  But the Pharisee, noticing that Jesus did not first wash before the meal, was surprised.  Luke 11:37-38

Jesus calls us to obey Him, not man made rules. In Jesus time the Pharisees and teachers of the law taught many man made rules.  These rules were like little x’s around the big X of God’s Law.  For example, the Law says to keep the Sabbath day holy by doing no work (Ex. 20:10).  The Pharisees and teachers of the law taught rules like, “Do not light a fire on the Sabbath”.

We do the same today when we make up our own rules.  Our rules may even seem amusing to those around us.  For example, “Do not be one minute late for work,” and its antithesis, “Do not be one minute early for work.”  Another couplet is, “Don’t drive one mile per hour over the speed limit,” and, “Don’t drive one mile per hour under the speed limit.”  Rules such as these constrict our lives.  Sets of rules can also put us in double-binds.  Examples of double-binds are, “Do not lie,” and, “Don’t say anything that could hurt anyone.”  Or the corollary, “Always tell the truth,” and, “How things look is what matters.”

Constricting and double-binding rules can drive us crazy.  Rules also “load people down with burdens they can hardly carry.” (Luke 11:46)  These rules have an appearance of wisdom but lack any power in helping us obey Jesus and live a godly life (Colossians 2:20-23).

We develop rules in reaction to shame.  When we wrongly assume that feelings of shame are about what we have done rather than about what has been done to us, we treat shame as guilt.  In our search for what we have done wrong, we actually find some blame that we can lay on ourselves.  We develop rules to guard us from future wrong-doing to protect us from “guilt”, but these rules actually create more “guilt”.  We feel “guilty” whenever we inevitably break our constricting and double-binding rules.  In actuality, rules trap us and keep us from moving forward in life.  Confession frees us from guilt and can bring light to our self-imposed rules.  Anything that attempts to hold us in bondage is shame or condemnation (Rom. 8:1).  There is no condemnation for those in Christ Jesus.

Jesus says to us:  “Come to Me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.  For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.” (Matthew 11:28-30)

Finding rest for my soul,

Noah Woodrich

WITH ME: Wisdom Intercession Teaching Hospitality Mercy Encouragement

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18 Self Hatred

My last post may have made it sound like you have or you do not have shame.  Actually, we live in a mixture between feeling shame and feeling loved.  In this confusion, we ask the question, “Am I so bad?”  We seek ways to prove to ourselves that we are not so bad.  Our tendency toward perfectionism is one of them.  Self-hatred contrasts with shame by providing an answer to shame’s question.  “I am so bad!”

Oddly enough, self-hatred can at times feel better than shame.  We ask ourselves, “Am I so bad?”  Our feelings of being loved and of feeling shamed fight each other.  The arguments between love and shame create tension and insecurity as they rage unresolved.  In contrast, self-hatred gives a false sense of being settled or resolved, even if in a negative way.

When Judas, who had betrayed him, saw that Jesus was condemned, he was seized with remorse and returned the thirty silver coins to the chief priests and the elders.  “I have sinned,” he said, “for I have betrayed innocent blood.”  “What is that to us?” they replied.  “That’s your responsibility.”  So Judas threw the money into the temple and left.  Then he went away and hanged himself.  Matthew 27: 3-5

Self-hatred flows into self-punishing behaviors.  These behaviors done to self vary in destructiveness from hair pulling, excessive scratching, pinching and cutting, to suicide.  Physical pain feels like it brings relief from the emotional pain, but is only a temporary distraction; the emotional pain eventually returns (in the case of suicide, the pain is eternal).

For those of us who experience self-hatred, God’s love can seem hopelessly unrealistic.  Take heart.  Jesus makes us whole.  He can heal you.  Bringing the dead to life is one of God’s specialties.

You may have prayed for years to be healed.  Keep praying.  Ask others to pray with you.  Deep emotional healing takes time.  You need tell others about your struggle.  This may include counseling.

If you or someone you know is contemplating suicide, call for help.  You could call your church and ask to speak to a pastor.  If you are not willing to talk to someone in your circle of acquaintances, call the Christian Suicide Prevention at 888-667-5947, website: http://www.christiansuicideprevention.com/  if you are contemplating suicide, suffering in silence could result in your death.  Do get help.

Finding relief and hope in the journey,

Noah Woodrich

WITH ME: Wisdom Intercession Teaching Hospitality Mercy Encouragement

     Bringing grace and truth to the downcast; reflecting the light we have received                                    so that others can better see.  Prayers needed.

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17 Shame

I have danced around the subject of shame.  Previous posts provided tools to deal with it.  I hope that you are ready to hear about this deep, dark, intractable subject.

(H)e raped her…Tamar put ashes on her head and tore the ornamented robe she was wearing.  She put her hand on her head and went away; weeping aloud as she went…And Tamar lived in her brother Absalom’s house, a desolate woman.  2 Samuel 13:14,19,20

Shame feels like hopelessness, emptiness, worthlessness, loneliness or pain.  Shame relentlessly hits our souls and identities with negative messages.  Shame diminishes and intensifies, but it never completely goes away.  Triggers remind us of our shame.

Our identities developed in childhood.  Back then, we believed what happened to us was about or even because of us.  When parents or other significant people in our lives wounded us repeatedly, we came to believe that we were defective.  This formed our shame-based identity.

Shame feels like guilt, and so we may confuse the two.  Indeed, they intermix when we sin as others sin against us.  To heal from shame, we need help discerning the difference between the two.  With guilt, we confess how we hurt others and receive forgiveness through the blood of Christ.  With shame, we need to acknowledge how other people hurt us, which can involve letting ourselves feel the anger we have towards them.  Throughout this process, we need to forgive them through the power which Christ’s blood affords us.  We resist forgiving, especially so when others do not acknowledge how they hurt us.  We still need to forgive them.  Forgiving can be a long and difficult process.  Yet it ultimately frees us.  As Francis Frangipane writes, “Unforgiveness is like taking poison and waiting for the other person to die.”

Beyond forgiving, we need to receive from God our new identity as forgiven and beloved.  As we receive God’s forgiveness and love, our shame-based identity fights back and struggles for survival.  When we try to kill our shame-based identity, we shame ourselves. We actually feed it in trying to destroy it.  Rather, we need to let go of the old identity and allow God to transform us into our new identity in Christ.  We cooperate with Him when we stop trying to earn His love, yield to Him and let Him give us our new identity.

Let go of shame.  Shame can stick like glue and it resists dying.  Do not focus on shame. Rather, focus on God, His love and forgiveness.  God created us.  He nurtures our new self.  Open your heart and mind to Him.  Crying out to Him opens your heart to Him.  Receive His love as gift.

Much of our recovery involves letting go of shame and receiving God’s love.

Learning to see myself as His beloved,

Noah Woodrich

WITH ME: Wisdom Intercession Teaching Hospitality Mercy Encouragement

     Bringing grace and truth to the downcast; reflecting the light we have received                                    so that others can better see.  Prayers needed.

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15 Resistance

If you have spent any time owning and letting go (from the last two posts), then you will probably have encountered resistance within yourself.  Owning and letting go require change and bring us into deep heart issues.  Our actions spring from the heart, as Jesus said in Matthew. Tryingto change behavior does no good if our hearts are not changed.  Yet our hearts resist change.  Even when we feel intense pain, our hearts would rather not change because the known pain feels safer than the unknown change.  The old way provides an unhappy settledness.  Pain motivates change.  Yet, at some point, we need to decide to change.

How then do we overcome resistance once we decide to make lasting change in our lives?  We utilize the enabling power of the Holy Spirit (II Peter 1:3).  Yielding to the Holy Spirit involves dying to a habit or way of thinking.  Initially, this letting go can involve even more pain than the pain that motivated us to make a change.  We need to move forward believing that the change will ultimately result in less pain and a more obedient and rested life.  He will bring comfort to us in our pain (Matthew 5:4).  To overcome resistance, we need to trust God’s leading.  We need to believe He knows better than we do what is in our ultimate good.

So I find this law at work:  When I want to do good, evil is right there with me.  For in my inner being I delight in God’s law, but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war with the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members.  Romans 7:21-23

Resolving our issues involves letting go of our resistance to change.  The process can feel like an internal battle and it takes time.  We may need to struggle with deep issues for years.  Unresolved questions from our childhood originated our deep issues.  We needed to know that someone loved us.  Wondering if no one did led us to perfectionism.  Perfectionism became the way we protected ourselves against feeling unloved.  That self-protection is the root of resistance.  Having been wounded when vulnerable, we shielded of our hearts.  This self-protective shell may have defended us as children but it no longer works.

As we continue to experience pain and shame in our process of healing, we continue to resist the process of letting go.  We need to allow ourselves to feel the emotional pain in order to heal.  When we cry out to God, He helps us begin to deal with this pain.  We realize our need for the comfort of the Holy Spirit–the Comforter (John 14).

Perfectionism demands quick solutions.  We need to give ourselves grace as we struggle to heal and grow.  God is healing us.  He will grow us.  He will work out our sanctification.  “Through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death.” (Romans 8:2)

Learning to let go of resistance,

Noah Woodrich

WITH ME: Wisdom Intercession Teaching Hospitality Mercy Encouragement

     Bringing grace and truth to the downcast; reflecting the light we have received                                    so that others can better see.  Prayers needed.

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5 Perfectionism

I love this thought from a reader:  “[Developing trust] come[s] down to abiding in Him and His love, that is the only way that trust is born… if He makes it alive in us and we abide in Him.”

Perfectionism afflicts many of us as we try to please God or make ourselves righteous by our own effort.  We find those efforts never succeed.  We try harder and harder but the goal gets higher and higher.  At each level we tell ourselves, “That’s not good enough”.  Quite frankly, our works are never good enough!  We cannot make ourselves righteous or pleasing to God.  Our righteousness is found in the blood of Jesus Christ, alone.  Jesus said, “No one is good, except God, alone.” (Luke 18:19)

I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin.  I do not understand what I do.  For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. Romans 7:14-15

Yes, we are given a heart of flesh to replace the heart of stone (Ezekiel 36:26), and yet, we are continually beset by our sin nature!  We will not be totally free until Heaven.  In the meantime, our redeemed spirit is in battle with our flesh and vice versa.  We want to please God!  We want to live righteously, but we often fall short of the mark.

We are pulled into this struggle with our sin nature, thinking that we can somehow win – that we will someday find the final secret of how to overcome all our temptations and weaknesses.  This is self-deception.  Be deceived no more!  The final answer is Heaven!  Until then, Romans 7:14-15 still applies to us.

This may sound like bad news.  For those of us who have given ourselves over to perfectionism, we may absolutely hate the concept that we are not perfect.  However, the truth will win out.  What do you hear God telling you about your efforts to please Him?

Struggling with you,

Noah Woodrich

WITH ME: Wisdom Intercession Teaching Hospitality Mercy Encouragement

Bringing grace and truth to the downcast; reflecting the light we have received so that others can better see.  We have a dream & need support and prayers.

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