59 Repentance

God’s kindness leads to repentance.  Romans 2:4

Those whom I love I rebuke and discipline.  So be earnest, and repent.  Here I am!  I stand at the door and knock.  If anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with Him, and He with Me.  Revelation 3:19-20

“God’s kindness leads to repentance.”  God loves us and woos us to Himself.  He wants us to repent for our own good.  Our lives are empty without Him.  God gives the only valid meaning for our lives.  We find the freedom to repent when we know that we are coming to a gracious and kind God Who wants to forgive us.  He is not going to shake a finger at us when we repent.  He does not add shame to our guilt.  When we repent, He forgives us rather than condemns us.  Condemnation comes from the enemy, not from God.

God will convict us of our sin, but conviction differs substantially from condemnation.  Conviction provides a knowing that we have done wrong.  Conviction may be accompanied by feelings of guilt and remorse.  Condemnation involves judgment without mercy.  Condemnation leads to shame and self-hatred rather than repentance and forgiveness.  Notice: Judas knew betraying Jesus was wrong.  He seemed to have felt conviction after the betrayal, but that quickly turned to condemnation after Judas went to unsafe people to confess his sin.  His condemnation led him to the ultimate act of self-hatred.  (See Matthew 27: 3-5)

Our Lord calls us to repent which means to turn away from our sins.  As He reveals our sins to us we can repent of them one by one.  We need to confess our sins to Him even though He knows what we have done already.  By our act of confession we bring our sins into the light.  We stop hiding what we have done.  Hiding only adds shame to our guilt.  In repenting we chose not to sin, but rather to obey.  Then we need to seek and receive His forgiveness.  “If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.” (I John 1:9)

Consider the dominant motivation for our lives.  What moves us?  Why do we do what we do?  What purpose do we find for our lives?  Do we live for ourselves, or for our Lord?  We need to repent, to change, to do a 180 degree turn from how we have lived.  We need to turn from our self-directed lives and to turn to the Living God.  We need to turn to “Jesus, the Author and Perfector of our faith”. (Hebrews 12:2)  He is Lord of our lives which means He is our leader, ruler and authority.  He directs our lives.  He is the Master of our destiny.  We live for Him, and for Him, only.  “Seek first His Kingdom, and His righteousness.” (Matthew 6:33)  “First” here means the motivation that drives all other motivations.  “For you know that it was not with perishable things such as silver or gold that you were redeemed from the empty way of life handed down to you from your forefathers, but with the precious blood of Christ, a lamb without blemish or defect.” I Peter 1:18-19

The Lord rebukes those whom He loves (Revelation 3:19).  “If anyone hears my voice….”  He is speaking.  We need to pay attention.  What He says may seem difficult at times, but He speaks to us in love.  The Lord shows us what “safe” really means (Ephesians 4:15).

Loved and disciplined,

Noah Woodrich

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58 Mercy

Good news, bad news and the rest of the story, but background first.  I have been unemployed since November.  Unemployment provides less than half of what we really need to sustain our lifestyle.  My parents have been helping us pay rent.  Good news is that Marguex now has a job!  Bad news is that she absolutely needs a car with her new job, and our car is on its last three legs.  We could fix it, but do not think it is worth the money, potentially a couple thousand dollars, only to have it completely die in a few months.  It has over 200,000 miles on it.  Rest of the story: Friends of ours, wonderful, kind, generous bestest of friends, have offered to give us one of their cars!  Another couple, wonderful, kind, generous, bestest of friends (we are graced with good friends), have loaned us their car in the meantime!  God is good!

When we are broken we may doubt our standing with God.  We even wonder if we will be accepted into heaven.  These wonderings can leave us with tremendous feelings of fear and dread as we recall times when we have failed God.  We may even hate ourselves for the bad things we have done in life.  Be reassured, our relationship with God does not depend on our behavior.  Our relationship is built on His mercy.  Yes, He calls us to obey Him, and yes, He will forgive us no matter how many times we have sinned when we ask Him to forgive us.  “If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.” (I John 1:9)

He says to Moses, “I will have mercy on whom I have mercy, and I will have compassion on whom I have compassion.”  It does not, therefore, depend on man’s desire or effort, but on God’s mercy.  Romans 9:15-16

Regardless of what we have done or not done in life, we need to rely and trust in God’s mercy.  The Gospel, good news, is all about God’s mercy.  We do not redeem ourselves.  We are redeemed by the blood of our Savior and Lord, Jesus Christ.  In our perfectionism, we tend to fall into the trap of believing that our acceptability depends on our performance.  We need to keep reminding ourselves God is full of mercy and compassion.

We would like to obey God which is good.  However, in our efforts to obey, we often lose sight of God’s mercy and grace.  Perhaps this saying will help: “Mercy! Mercy! Mercy! Grace! Grace! Grace!”

But when the kindness and love of God our Savior appeared, He saved us, not because of righteous things we had done, but because of His mercy.  He saved us through the washing of rebirth and renewal by the Holy Spirit…. Titus 3:4-5  Mercy triumphs over judgment!  James 2:13  Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ!  In His great mercy He has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead…. I Peter 1:3

Receiving His kind and tender mercy,

Noah Woodrich

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57 Brokenness

The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me because the Lord has anointed me to preach good news to the poor.  He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from the darkness for the prisoners, to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor and the day of vengeance of our God, to comfort all who mourn and provide for those who grieve in Zion—to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair.  They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the Lord for the display of His splendor.  Isaiah 61:1-3

Blessed are the broken, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.  Matthew 5:3

He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness.”  Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.  2 Corinthians 12:9.

We are all broken.  All of us have “sinned and fallen short of the glory of God.” (Romans 3:23)  Some of us acknowledge our brokenness and some do not.  If we don’t acknowledge our brokenness, we act out of pride.  We hide behind a façade of capability.  This is not to deny that we are capable in some areas, yet we all have areas of brokenness and weakness, areas in which we have unresolved problems.  When we acknowledge our brokenness to God, He will come to our aid.  We are weak.  God wants us to acknowledge our weakness.  In this state He gets the glory for any growth in our lives. The Lord puts us on display for His splendor.

For those of us dealing with recovery from perfectionism this can feel painfully embarrassing.  We want to feel like we have it all together.  We want to be in control.  We want others to think highly of us.  We want to feel good about ourselves based on how we perform at any given task, but feeling good about ourselves based on our performance is fleeting at best.  We may do well today but what about tomorrow when we may fail miserably?  An identity based on a self-esteem manufactured from performance is a recipe for discouragement and heartache.  We need to base our identity on God’s view of us, rather than our performance.

We need to push through our embarrassment regarding our weaknesses and brokenness.  Letting go of our mask of competency in those areas where we are not competent will bring our hearts into the Light where they can grow.  God deserves the glory for all the good things in our lives.  Humbling ourselves before Him leads to healing.  When we acknowledge our brokenness, God gets the glory!

Broken and finding God’s glory,

Noah Woodrich

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56 The Narrow Path

Enter through the narrow gate.  For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it.  But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life and only a few find it.  Matthew 7:13-14

Jesus is “the Way, the Truth and the Life”.  John 14:6 

The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not be in want.  He makes me lie down in green pastures, He leads me beside quiet waters, He restores my soul.  He guides me in the paths of righteousness for His name’s sake.  Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.  Psalm 23:1-4

Jesus is the narrow path.  How do we live under Jesus’ Lordship and authority?  Matthew 7:12 gives a clue in this direction.  “So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets.”

When we try to earn God’s love, acceptance and approval, we will veer from the narrow path.  At the same time, we disregard God when we use grace as an excuse to sin.  “Live as free men, but do not use your freedom as a cover-up for evil; live as servants of God…What shall we say, then?  Shall we do on sinning so that grace may increase?  By no means!  We died to sin; how can we live in it any longer?” (I Peter 2:16, Romans 6:1-2)  Herein we see the two sides of the narrow path, namely, grace and obedience.  In other words, one side is to receive grace and forgiveness as a gift, unmerited, undeserved and based solely on Who God is; the other side is to respect and revere God as Lord as shown by our obedience to Him.

If we are not trying to earn God’s approval, why obey?  Because God is worthy of our obedience!  Also, His love motivates our love in return.  “We love because He first loved us.” (I John 4:19)  Jesus parable in Luke 7:47 states, in essence, that those who are forgiven much love much.  When we encounter God’s love for us, we naturally respond by loving Him back which leads us to obey.  “If you love Me, you will obey what I command.” (John 14:15)

Trying to keep to the narrow road may seem like trying to keep rules which hold us in a double-bind.  If this is true it would only add to our perfectionism.  We need help to heal from perfectionism.  Paul in Philippians 3:12-14 states, “Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me.  Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it.  But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.”

Pressing on to know Jesus, my Lord and Savior,

Noah Woodrich

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